The Murverse Mothership

Lots of stuff to talk about!

First, I have a new website! The super cool thing about this, with regards to you, is that I can lock posts so that only patreon subscribers can see them. I’ll be making mirror posts here for a while, but you should check it out!

What you will need to do is log into my site – murverse.com/wp-admin where you will have an option to log in with Patreon. Then you should see the locked post. Currently, the only locked post will be this one, but check it out!

Secondly, I’ve been coming to terms that I’ve been in some sort of depressed stasis this year. When depression hits you and it’s not sadness per se, but you find you look at your to-do list and decide nothing on it is terribly important, and you should play video games, and this happens several times, it’s time to look a little harder at yourself.

I don’t know if I am still coming down off of last year which was super busy and an emotional roller coaster, or if my health is bugging me because I’m having a pint of blood drained monthly and that can tend to mess with your energy levels just a wee bit, or if it’s something else.

Or if it’s the fact that I have depression and sometimes it rears its ugly head. Only depression doesn’t rear its head; it stirs in the water of your subconscious and starts a slow whirlpool that sucks you down.

Poetic, ain’t it?

Whatever it is, this morning I got up and had a very clear thought that I’ve been stuck for months now. That’s the word that keeps coming up. Glued to the floor, unable to move. So now that I know that’s what’s going on, I’m moving again.

What does this mean for you? Well as much as I’d like to say I’m all better automatically, I know that’s not how this works, ever. Right now I’m doing the metaphorical cleaning house, going through emails, making detailed lists, and looking to see what’s been gathering dust. Like communicating with this patreon. And the Ditch Diggers file that’s been sitting on my computer. Matt and I should be meeting today as well. I haven’t recorded an ISBW because, well, I haven’t been. But I will try to do one soon. I have to get moving on the book, after all!

So right now I’m just trying to be kind to myself, but remember that I need a prod, and when I reach for something like my iPad, maybe I can think of something a little more productive I can do. Like make awesome stuff for you guys. You’ve stood by me for months, some of you for years. That means so much to me I can’t even begin to say. But if I can keep my head above water and get out of this whirlpool, I will try to show you equal love and support.